I have a new morning routine that I am just loving. After I get my son out the door to school, I make a cup of chai, grab my ipod, curl into my favorite chair in my office, face the sunshine and meditate for about 20 minutes. No huge epiphanies yet, but it has been a terrific way to center myself and start off my day.
I love it, and I feel like it is really beginning to make a difference. In any case. As I was poking around my computer and trying to organize my itunes, I came across this mp3 called the strangest secret. I had never noticed it before and was curious. After listening to it, I found out that it had come from Mark Victor Hansen. It was a recording of a speech that Earl Nightingale had given to his sales team. Talk about inspiring. It was awesome, and ended with some suggestions as well as a 30 day challenge that I am planning to incorporate into my morning routine.
The challenge includes writing down your goals on note cards and viewing them everyday. It occurred to me that the perfect time to do this would be just after I finish my meditation and right before I swing into full gear for the day. That should be the perfect, calm time to review them, set about some action steps and get my day rolling.
So, here are my goals for my 30 day challenge and will keep you posted with results:
30 Day Challenge Goals:
• I am making an additional $6,000 in income every month
• My family and I enjoy a peaceful, loving environment that is nurturing
and abundant
• I am meeting new people weekly who help me redefine myself, understand
the laws of the universe and achieve my personal and financial goals.
• My son and daughter have lovely, finished, organized bedrooms that give
them a fun and relaxing places to enjoy themselves and hang with their friends.
• I have paid off another $3,000 of debt.
• I have lost 8 lbs of fat and it is gone for good!
I'm sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thank you!!!
With excitement and anticipation,
Kristen
Showing posts with label manifestation experiment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label manifestation experiment. Show all posts
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
When it rains, it pours...
And I am not just referring to Morton's Salt or our crazy New England weather yesterday.
I have been working really, really hard on these manifestation experiments. And I can't say that they are going poorly, just that they are not going in the direction I expected.
It is all fascinating. Frustrating and fascinating. An overriding theme over the past two weeks has been forgiveness and letting go. As I read more and more information about this movement in our world toward energy work, or as I listen to teleconferences on the subject, forgiveness keeps occurring to me.
I have a lot to forgive, it is true. But my biggest stumbling block has been how forgiveness relates to my ex husband. On some levels I have forgiven him, and on other levels I have been unable to out of fear. Not forgiving him makes me feel safe. It keeps me from ever letting him back into my life. And if he is not back in my life then it keeps me and my kids safe. The biggest problem is, it also keeps me angry and that has proven to be detrimental to my being able to move forward.
This proves to be a bit of a double edged sword. Tony represents for me a trifecta - the perfect storm of all the shortcomings and inadequacies that I felt and experienced throughout my life. One of the reasons I left was because his volatility and unmanaged temper was not providing a safe, happy, peaceful environment for my family to thrive in. But now I find, that by not being able to forgive him and move on, I have the lingering effects of that anger remaining in my life. I see it in the way my children respond and react to each other. I feel it within myself. I don't have peace, I don't have calmness, I don't have happiness and freedom. I didn't really escape it at all and probably won't until I can find a way to completely release him from my life. And maybe that comes from forgiveness.
But how? How do I forgive the man who ruined my life?
I do try to forgive him, but often find I can't completely get there. On some levels I get that there was a role he had to play in my life. That there was a role that he had to play in his own life. That we are both on our own journeys and those journeys happened to intersect for a time. There are days when I can completely and objectively step back and say thank you to him - thank you. Because without his impact in my life I may not have turned out to be so strong. Without his darkness I may not have fought so hard to find the light. Without his anger and unpredictability I may not have so desperately sought to find happiness, peace and stability. Without his greed and selfishness, I may not have been driven as hard to find a way to give to others and to provide a good life for my own family. Without him, I wouldn't have my two beautiful children, who in their own ways have helped make me a better person.
Maybe that is how you forgive. By saying thank you. By moving forward and moving on and appreciating that my life is unfolding perfectly, and that he was just part of the plan.
So thank you Tony. I forgive you. I am moving on. I no longer wish to hold on to this experience and have it define me. I am choosing to let it go, to let you go. To release your vibration from it's hold on me.
I appreciate the role in my life that you have played. I appreciate that you have {so clearly} pointed out to me all of the things that I do not want so I can now move towards what I do. I can let you go now. I don't need you any more. My new course is charted and the seas are calm. I am moving forward from these last years with peace, gratitude and thanks for the role that you played in it. I do not wish to be sucked into your bottomless pit of anger and despair any more. I wish you well on your journey and wish you out of mine.
God speed. Be well. Thank you.
All is forgiven.
I have been working really, really hard on these manifestation experiments. And I can't say that they are going poorly, just that they are not going in the direction I expected.
It is all fascinating. Frustrating and fascinating. An overriding theme over the past two weeks has been forgiveness and letting go. As I read more and more information about this movement in our world toward energy work, or as I listen to teleconferences on the subject, forgiveness keeps occurring to me.
I have a lot to forgive, it is true. But my biggest stumbling block has been how forgiveness relates to my ex husband. On some levels I have forgiven him, and on other levels I have been unable to out of fear. Not forgiving him makes me feel safe. It keeps me from ever letting him back into my life. And if he is not back in my life then it keeps me and my kids safe. The biggest problem is, it also keeps me angry and that has proven to be detrimental to my being able to move forward.
This proves to be a bit of a double edged sword. Tony represents for me a trifecta - the perfect storm of all the shortcomings and inadequacies that I felt and experienced throughout my life. One of the reasons I left was because his volatility and unmanaged temper was not providing a safe, happy, peaceful environment for my family to thrive in. But now I find, that by not being able to forgive him and move on, I have the lingering effects of that anger remaining in my life. I see it in the way my children respond and react to each other. I feel it within myself. I don't have peace, I don't have calmness, I don't have happiness and freedom. I didn't really escape it at all and probably won't until I can find a way to completely release him from my life. And maybe that comes from forgiveness.
But how? How do I forgive the man who ruined my life?
I do try to forgive him, but often find I can't completely get there. On some levels I get that there was a role he had to play in my life. That there was a role that he had to play in his own life. That we are both on our own journeys and those journeys happened to intersect for a time. There are days when I can completely and objectively step back and say thank you to him - thank you. Because without his impact in my life I may not have turned out to be so strong. Without his darkness I may not have fought so hard to find the light. Without his anger and unpredictability I may not have so desperately sought to find happiness, peace and stability. Without his greed and selfishness, I may not have been driven as hard to find a way to give to others and to provide a good life for my own family. Without him, I wouldn't have my two beautiful children, who in their own ways have helped make me a better person.
Maybe that is how you forgive. By saying thank you. By moving forward and moving on and appreciating that my life is unfolding perfectly, and that he was just part of the plan.
So thank you Tony. I forgive you. I am moving on. I no longer wish to hold on to this experience and have it define me. I am choosing to let it go, to let you go. To release your vibration from it's hold on me.
I appreciate the role in my life that you have played. I appreciate that you have {so clearly} pointed out to me all of the things that I do not want so I can now move towards what I do. I can let you go now. I don't need you any more. My new course is charted and the seas are calm. I am moving forward from these last years with peace, gratitude and thanks for the role that you played in it. I do not wish to be sucked into your bottomless pit of anger and despair any more. I wish you well on your journey and wish you out of mine.
God speed. Be well. Thank you.
All is forgiven.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
No Strings attached.
So more interesting developments in my manifestation experiment. Yesterday, when I picked up the mail, most of it was boring, but there was one interesting letter that caught my eye. I looked at it curiously for a moment and then wishfully hoped that there would be a check inside. When I opened it, much to my surprise and amazement there was!! For $3,690.-. The letter that came with it stated that I had won a sweepstakes drawing!!! WHAT!!!! I read it again. It mentioned Kohl's, Home Depot, Target, and a few other large department stores that I shop at and fill out the online surveys for all the time. I couldn't believe it. I danced, I whooped, I carried on endlessly. I called my friend Sue. I said, "You are not going to believe this...."
Money, no strings attached. Had I done it? Had I figured out the secret to manifesting abundance?
NO!
After I climbed down from my lofty perch and read the letter a little more carefully, I realized that the whole thing was probably nothing more than a big fat scam. Shame on them. So I googled it and sure enough, Rip-off report had a big fat warning and the exact scam I held in my hands listed in it. Different bank name, but same scam. Same people running it.
Bummer.
So what is this? Money, but still arriving with strings attached. What do I need to clean and clear from my DNA? What do I need to do differently than I am doing?
On the bright side, I sold three of my jewelry designs on eBay (see bluerskies06) yesterday and $50 worth of gift certificates arrived in the mail. So little by little I am getting there!!
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Today I am going to turn my attention on focusing on finding help and resources to produce/develop/manufacture some of the ideas that I have been kicking around. I really need some guidance with those, so I am hopeful that the universe will send me some direction on that! And I will ask for a little help with my ebay sales, a little more activity there would be greatly appreciated!!
Bigger and better is still to come. I am deserving, I am open, I am creative, I am willing. I love this crazy trip we are on through life. What a ride.
Cheers!
Kristen
Money, no strings attached. Had I done it? Had I figured out the secret to manifesting abundance?
NO!
After I climbed down from my lofty perch and read the letter a little more carefully, I realized that the whole thing was probably nothing more than a big fat scam. Shame on them. So I googled it and sure enough, Rip-off report had a big fat warning and the exact scam I held in my hands listed in it. Different bank name, but same scam. Same people running it.
Bummer.
So what is this? Money, but still arriving with strings attached. What do I need to clean and clear from my DNA? What do I need to do differently than I am doing?
On the bright side, I sold three of my jewelry designs on eBay (see bluerskies06) yesterday and $50 worth of gift certificates arrived in the mail. So little by little I am getting there!!
-------
Today I am going to turn my attention on focusing on finding help and resources to produce/develop/manufacture some of the ideas that I have been kicking around. I really need some guidance with those, so I am hopeful that the universe will send me some direction on that! And I will ask for a little help with my ebay sales, a little more activity there would be greatly appreciated!!
Bigger and better is still to come. I am deserving, I am open, I am creative, I am willing. I love this crazy trip we are on through life. What a ride.
Cheers!
Kristen
Monday, October 5, 2009
The manifesting continues....
WOW! I admittedly don't understand what is going on. It is crazy good!
Remember Dave D'Apice? He is the guy I mentioned in my blog from this morning. Dave is from The Simon Group (a marketing, advertising and graphic design firm in North Andover, MA). I met him about 20 years ago when I worked as a designer at another agency called Tepperman Ray (and equally talented design group) which was located in the same building at the opposite end of the hall. Anyway, as Dave and I chatted yesterday, we talked about how much our business has changed and people we have know, etc. During that conversation we talked about Carrol Ray and Paul Tepperman who I haven't seen for at least 15 years, maybe longer.
Here is the weird part. I had to run out to Staples this morning to get some shipping supplies. When I got there, I was in the middle of a conversation with my friend Maria trying to pitch her on this "fabulous" idea I had for promoting every one's business simultaneously. (She wasn't biting, but I was being persistent and did manage to get her to agree to a breakfast so we could talk about the idea in a little more detail.) Anyway, I didn't want to walk into the store while I was on my phone (I can be animated when I am trying to pitch and idea), so I sat in my car to finish up our conversation. I had gotten a front row spot at the store, and was parked right in front of the entrance where I was able to watch everyone running in and out. Suddenly some thing peculiar caught my attention. Walking right past me on his way into the store was none other than Carroll Ray. I couldn't believe it. That was just bizarre. My conversation with Maria was just about done, so I said goodbye and ran into Staples. I spied Carroll at the back of the store, so I snuck up on him and said, "HEY, the weirdest thing just happened to me and you are not going to believe it!" Fortunately he recognized me, otherwise that might have been awkward! :-) I explained to him what had just happened and he replied with, "Be careful what you wish for!"
It has been great to catch up with all of these people from my past, but it does beg the question, just what is the universe lining up for me. I am admittedly curious and mystified. It is intriguing to say the least. Admittedly when I ran into Carroll, it quickly occurred to me what a crush I used to have on him way back when. Could that be it? Sunday afternoon after I ran into Dave an idea occurred to me about how we could help each other in the business world. Could that be it? Could the convergence of all of these talented and creative people be the start of something. All of us are struggling in our respective industries at this point, could our meeting just be the start of a new, bigger entity? Will they help me in some way shape or form in the future? Could that be it?
Aaarrrgh! The suspense is killing me. I did have an idea however about having a mastermind luncheon with all of us together - some others that haven't resurfaced yet included. I think that could be a fun and interesting lunch. Dave D'Apice, Dave Petty, Paul Tepperman, Carroll Ray, James Mahoney...maybe it is the start of something. I will have to keep my eyes and ears open for more clues!
Remember Dave D'Apice? He is the guy I mentioned in my blog from this morning. Dave is from The Simon Group (a marketing, advertising and graphic design firm in North Andover, MA). I met him about 20 years ago when I worked as a designer at another agency called Tepperman Ray (and equally talented design group) which was located in the same building at the opposite end of the hall. Anyway, as Dave and I chatted yesterday, we talked about how much our business has changed and people we have know, etc. During that conversation we talked about Carrol Ray and Paul Tepperman who I haven't seen for at least 15 years, maybe longer.
Here is the weird part. I had to run out to Staples this morning to get some shipping supplies. When I got there, I was in the middle of a conversation with my friend Maria trying to pitch her on this "fabulous" idea I had for promoting every one's business simultaneously. (She wasn't biting, but I was being persistent and did manage to get her to agree to a breakfast so we could talk about the idea in a little more detail.) Anyway, I didn't want to walk into the store while I was on my phone (I can be animated when I am trying to pitch and idea), so I sat in my car to finish up our conversation. I had gotten a front row spot at the store, and was parked right in front of the entrance where I was able to watch everyone running in and out. Suddenly some thing peculiar caught my attention. Walking right past me on his way into the store was none other than Carroll Ray. I couldn't believe it. That was just bizarre. My conversation with Maria was just about done, so I said goodbye and ran into Staples. I spied Carroll at the back of the store, so I snuck up on him and said, "HEY, the weirdest thing just happened to me and you are not going to believe it!" Fortunately he recognized me, otherwise that might have been awkward! :-) I explained to him what had just happened and he replied with, "Be careful what you wish for!"
It has been great to catch up with all of these people from my past, but it does beg the question, just what is the universe lining up for me. I am admittedly curious and mystified. It is intriguing to say the least. Admittedly when I ran into Carroll, it quickly occurred to me what a crush I used to have on him way back when. Could that be it? Sunday afternoon after I ran into Dave an idea occurred to me about how we could help each other in the business world. Could that be it? Could the convergence of all of these talented and creative people be the start of something. All of us are struggling in our respective industries at this point, could our meeting just be the start of a new, bigger entity? Will they help me in some way shape or form in the future? Could that be it?
Aaarrrgh! The suspense is killing me. I did have an idea however about having a mastermind luncheon with all of us together - some others that haven't resurfaced yet included. I think that could be a fun and interesting lunch. Dave D'Apice, Dave Petty, Paul Tepperman, Carroll Ray, James Mahoney...maybe it is the start of something. I will have to keep my eyes and ears open for more clues!
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